jessica

loathing @ 2003-02-27T18:16:00

2003-02-27T23:22:30Z

this is my brother's baby. zoe lane.

loathing @ 2003-02-19T06:53:00

2003-02-19T11:54:01Z

we hope your rules and wisdom choke you.

loathing @ 2003-02-09T10:22:00

2003-02-09T15:27:51Z

A thousand lips a thousand tongues
A thousand throats a thousand lungs
A thousand ways to make it true
I want to do terrible things to you

loathing @ 2003-01-14T07:00:00

2003-01-14T11:58:32Z

Summer time and the wind is blowing outside in lower Chelsea.
And I don't know what I'm doing in this city,
The sun is always in my eyes,
It crashes through the windows, And I'm sleeping on the couch,
When I came to visit you,
That's when I knew, That I could never have you,
I knew that before you did,
Still I'm the one who's stupid,
And there's this burning, Like there's always been,
I've never been so alone, And I've never been so alive.
Visions of you on a motorcycle drive by,
The cigarette ash flies in your eyes, And you don't mind,
you smile,
And say the world doesn't fit with you.
I don't believe you, You're so serene.
Careening through the universe, Your axis on a tilt, You're guiltless and free,
I hope you take a piece of me with you,
And there's things I would like to do that you don't believe in,
I would like to build something, Buy you'll never going see it happen,
And there's this burning, Like there's always been,
I've never been so alone, And I've,
I've never been so alive,

And there's this burning, There is this burning ay ay ay.
Where's the soul. I want to know, New York City is evil.
The surface is everything, but I could never do that,
Someone would see through that.
And this is the last time, We'll be friends again.
I'll get over you, you'll wonder, who I am.
And there's this burning, Just like there's always been,
I've never been so alone, alone, alive, alive, I've never been so alive, so alive

I go home to the coast. It starts to rain, I paddle out on the water alone,
Taste the salt and taste the pain. I'm not thinking of you again,
Summer dies and swells rise,
The sun goes down in my eyes,
See this rolling wave,
Darkly coming to take me home,

And I never been so alone, And I've never been so alive.

new journal: susrev

loathing @ 2002-11-15T08:27:00

2002-11-15T15:42:39Z

noel: it would be nice if you acknowledged my existence once in a while. i'm sorry if i'm asking for too much from you [ a phone call or a quick email once in a while ].

i haven't written in here in a while. a lot has happened. my dad and me got into a huge fight which ended in him saying that he hates me and me saying that i've known that for years. that sent me right back into "self-destructive mode" and that's wear i seem to be stuck.

i hung out with corey and sarah after school on wednesday. actually felt some sort of emotional connection that i haven't felt in ages. i'm very thankful that sarah's in my life and i will not take her for granted. i needed her on wednesday and she was there for me. i needed her last night and she was there for me again. she's an amazing friend and i'm very thankful that i have someone like her in my life.

we're all hanging out again on sunday and i think we might go to the laundromat. i haven't washed clothes in ages and sarah wants to do them for me.

i called pier 1 back and they said that they're still reviewing applications. i seriously doubt i'll get a job there anyway.

things aren't going too well right now and sarah's the only one that seems to be there for me. i can't even get my best friend to return my phone calls.

strokes next friday. strokes next friday. strokes next friday.

loathing @ 2002-11-04T06:54:00

2002-11-04T11:50:59Z

loathing @ 2002-10-25T14:15:00

2002-10-25T18:15:02Z

so tonight i'm going to st. pete. i get to see the hottest girl in the world [katy w]. i also get to see blood brothers.
this time i will not be leaving so early and i will not be weird and shy. katy and me are gonna do IT.

i have to go home and wash clothes. i have absolutely nothing to wear tonight. i hope katy remembers to meet me in front of that daddy kool place at 8. if not this night is going to suck big cock.

&all of the night.

2002-10-20T01:32:32Z

How can I label you?
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doable.

2002-10-18T22:19:47Z

Which punk rock god are you?
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loathing @ 2002-10-17T20:15:00

2002-10-18T00:27:33Z

You Are A Juicy Kisser!

Your lips are totally kissable baby, and you know how to use them.

You are the perfect kisser - with the right combo of lips and tongue.

It's important to flaunt it, so kiss early and often on dates!

How Do *You* Kiss?

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loathing @ 2002-10-17T19:21:00

2002-10-17T23:26:38Z

i hope that it brought a smile to your face
when you found out that it brought tears to my eyes when i sensed your disinterest

i'm going to sleep now. fuck you.

I think you lost what you loved in that mess of details.
They seemed so important at the time but now you can't even recall any of the names, faces, or lines.

loathing @ 2002-10-15T14:54:00

2002-10-15T18:54:09Z

it really hurts when you find out that a friend talks bad about you. it hurts when a person tells you one thing and tells another the complete opposite. it hurts when you are so head over heels for someone and a person pretends to be all for it when in fact they aren't pleased with it at all. why lie? why don't you stop hiding behind things [people] and just come out and say what you really think to my face?

good question, eh?

loathing @ 2002-10-15T06:48:00

2002-10-15T10:45:00Z

dear katy w
i miss you.

loathing @ 2002-10-12T08:17:00

2002-10-12T12:41:23Z

i made this radio station:
amourfacile contains music from Stan Getz, Miles Davis, Ella Fitzgerald, John Coltrane, Chet Baker, Thelonious Monk, Charlie Parker, Duke Ellington, Dizzy Gillespie, Louis Armstrong, Sarah Vaughan, Billie Holiday and more!

my radio station and i are in love. every time i try to type radio i type radiohead.

loathing @ 2002-10-08T20:56:00

2002-10-09T01:17:38Z

Which SRQ Asshole Are You?
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if only i could walk in your shoes.

2002-10-04T18:31:08Z

loathing @ 2002-10-02T20:13:00

2002-10-03T00:22:00Z

I had tender feelings that you made hard
but it's your heart, not mine, that's scarred
so when I go home I'll be happy to go
you're just somebody that I used to know
you don't need my help anymore
it's all now to you, there ain't no before
now that you're big enough to run your own show
you're just somebody that I used to know
I watched you deal in a dying day
and throw a living past away
so you can be sure that you're in control
you're just somebody that I used to know
I know you don't think you did me wrong
and I can't stay this mad for long
keeping ahold of what you just let go
you're just somebody that I used to know

it's just a brief smile crossing your face
running speed trials standing in place

loathing @ 2002-10-01T19:46:00

2002-10-01T23:49:06Z

a robotic nation: too late
amour facile: why
a robotic nation: 8-)
a robotic nation: too late to smizzoke some
a robotic nation: hahahah
amour facile: hahah SORRY IM DUMB
amour facile: HAHAHA
a robotic nation: hahahah typing and thinking is so hard
a robotic nation: but holy shit
a robotic nation: popsicle
a robotic nation: s
a robotic nation: are amazing
amour facile: HAHAHAHA
a robotic nation: HAHAHHA
a robotic nation: jessica
amour facile: katy
a robotic nation: listen to this story
a robotic nation: once
a robotic nation: you said
a robotic nation: katy remember that time
a robotic nation: that you morphed from nico into a dog?!
a robotic nation: and i said
a robotic nation: FUCK YES
a robotic nation: IM ON THE ROYAL TENENBAUMS SOUNDTRACK
amour facile: HAHAHAHAHA
a robotic nation: and you were like NO WAY
a robotic nation: and i was like YES WAY
a robotic nation: DUUUUUUUUDE
a robotic nation: SURFS UP
a robotic nation: the end
amour facile: WE SHOULD START SAYING SURFS UP ALL OF THE TIME
a robotic nation: HAHAHAHAHA
a robotic nation: ok
amour facile: SURFS UP, KATY
a robotic nation: JHESSICA
a robotic nation: holy shit
a robotic nation: theres a robot
a robotic nation: on my desk
a robotic nation: cant move
a robotic nation: it responds to movement
a robotic nation: its going to killlllllll me
a robotic nation: KILLLLL ME
amour facile: listen nico... dont make me bitch slap you
a robotic nation: HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAAHAHAHAHAHAHA
a robotic nation: HAHAHAHSHAHAHAHA
a robotic nation: AHASHSHFJH GDBIGBKJFGHNL
amour facile: khedwqeiuwei
amour facile: is your name
a robotic nation: khedwqeiuwei
a robotic nation: is my game
amour facile: khedwqeiuwei
a robotic nation: uh uh uh
amour facile: is not lame
a robotic nation: khedwqeiuwei
a robotic nation: is destined to fame
amour facile: khedwqeiuwei
amour facile: likes to do it in the woods where the big boys do it because the big boys are so cool and they smell like poo and yeah yeah yeah this is the song from the girl who drinks the gin n juice ohhh yeeeaaaahhh
amour facile: BAM
a robotic nation: HAHAHAHAAHAHAH WHATAAATATATATA
a robotic nation: ATTTTTTTTTTTTTTT
a robotic nation: WHAAAAAAAAAATTTTTTTT
a robotic nation: JESSICA
a robotic nation: WHERE IS THAT FROM
amour facile: I JUST MADE IT UP
amour facile: HAHAHAHAHAHAHA
a robotic nation: HAHAHAHAHAHAHA
a robotic nation: JESSICAAAAAAAA
a robotic nation: ARE YOU HIZZIGHHHHHHH
amour facile: NO BUT IM ABOUT TO BE AS SOON AS PAPA BEAR LEAVES THE HIZZOUSE
a robotic nation: HAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHA
a robotic nation: WHY ARE YOU SO FUNNYYYYYYYY
amour facile: WHY AM I SO FUNNYYY WHEN I COULD BE A BUNNYYYYY
amour facile: NAMED SUNNYYYYY
amour facile: OOOOHHHH YEEEAAAHHHH
amour facile: KATY
amour facile: WE'RE SO FUNNY
a robotic nation: I KNOWWWWWWWW
a robotic nation: BUT I CANT TELL
a robotic nation: IF ITS BECAUSE IM INEBRIATED
a robotic nation: OR IF ITS REALLY FUNNY
a robotic nation: IN REAL LIFE
amour facile: IT IS
amour facile: DONT SAY THAT
amour facile: I'LL CRUCIFY YOU
a robotic nation: jessica
a robotic nation: talk to me serious
a robotic nation: like
a robotic nation: talk l;ike all profound im in the profound mood
amour facile: ghahahahaahahah
amour facile: okay
a robotic nation: OG GO GOG OGMGOGOGOGOG
a robotic nation: that
a robotic nation: is the sound
a robotic nation: of the end of the world
amour facile: OF SILENCE
a robotic nation: HAHAHAHAHAH
a robotic nation: SILENCE
a robotic nation: JESSICA WE'RE A POEM
a robotic nation: GO
amour facile: SILENCE IS LIKE VIOLENCE BUT NOT
a robotic nation: your favce
a robotic nation: face
a robotic nation: is like
a robotic nation: so prettayyyy
amour facile: jajajaajahahazahahahahaaha
a robotic nation: pri-tay
a robotic nation: the cat
a robotic nation: is on the trampoline
a robotic nation: and me
a robotic nation: well im peeing
a robotic nation: and agreeing
a robotic nation: and seeing
a robotic nation: your face
amour facile: pri-tay
a robotic nation: cause its oh so prettayyy
a robotic nation: pri-tay
a robotic nation: brandon may
a robotic nation: is online
a robotic nation: i want to say
a robotic nation: BRANDON MAY
a robotic nation: YOU ARE GAY
a robotic nation: go and lay
amour facile: YOU LIKE TO GET IT IN THE BOOTAY
a robotic nation: someone today
a robotic nation: of the same sex
a robotic nation: brandon maaaaaaaayyyyyyyyy
a robotic nation: the end of that part
a robotic nation: now
a robotic nation: my kazoo
a robotic nation: smells like poo
amour facile: HAHAHAHAHAHA
a robotic nation: my friend names lou
amour facile: is this your profound mood?
a robotic nation: is in husker du
a robotic nation: yes
a robotic nation: im reciting poetry
amour facile: oh okay
amour facile: whatever you say
a robotic nation: doiiii
amour facile: hhahahahahahaah
amour facile: you said doi
a robotic nation: doiiiiiiiiiiiiiii
a robotic nation: !!!!!!!!!!doiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii
amour facile: oh baby talk to me
amour facile: oh baby cant you see
amour facile: that im the shyest girl
amour facile: in the whole wide world
amour facile: so come on take my hand
a robotic nation: HAHHAHA WHATAAAAAAAAAAAA
a robotic nation: AVAVAVAVAVAVAVAVVAVAVAYAYAYAYAYYAYAYAYAYAYYAAYAYAAATATATATATATATATATATAT
amour facile: and make me understand
amour facile: i wanna beeee with you
amour facile: i wanna be so cloooseeee to youuu uiuuuuuuu
a robotic nation: AHHHHHHHHHHHHH
a robotic nation: AHHHHHHHHH
a robotic nation: BOAAAAAAAAAAAAAHJ
amour facile: BOAHHHHHHHH
a robotic nation: HAHHAHAHAH
a robotic nation: HAHHAHAHAAHAHAHHAA
amour facile: that's that song
amour facile: from the time
amour facile: when there were songs
a robotic nation: elllllll
a robotic nation: anor
a robotic nation: rigsby
amour facile: delawhore
amour facile: pigsby
a robotic nation: hahaha
amour facile: okay katy im going to go smoke now
amour facile: you keep the fort
amour facile: until i get back
a robotic nation: kkk
amour facile: WHEN I WAS JUST SMOKING I BLEEW MOKE IN MY CATS FACE AND HE GOES "DAMN JEHOVAH" AND I GOT "EXCUSE ME" AND HE GOE "HAIL JEHOVAH" AND THEN HIM AND THE BIRDS SANG "CHECKAA CHECKKKAAA BIG DYLAN"
amour facile: IN UNISON
a robotic nation: AHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA
a robotic nation: QWHAAAAAAAATTTTTTTTTT
amour facile: I DONT NKNOW
a robotic nation: HAHAHA
a robotic nation: im likenot even high anymore cause i didnt smoke very much
amour facile: OH I DID LIKE ANOUGH GFO FEED ELCPHANTS
a robotic nation: HAHAHHAHHAA
amour facile: KATY LETS FGO FISHKING
amour facile: FISHING
a robotic nation: hahha nooooo
amour facile: LIKE FISHRMAN
amour facile: LISTEN HERE
amour facile: MAMA JEHOVAH
a robotic nation: fishing is awfulllllllllllll ahhah
amour facile: OH WE'RE GOING
a robotic nation: HAHAAHAHA
amour facile: WHETHER YOU LIKE IT OR NOTIN
amour facile: NOTIN
amour facile: HAHAHAAHAHAHAHA
a robotic nation: NOTIN?!
a robotic nation: HAHAAHH
amour facile: okay my brother just called me a gizz eater
amour facile: EAY TO RUIN A GIRLS BUXXZZ
a robotic nation: HAHAHAHAHAHAHA
amour facile: AHAUHAUHAHAOSRIUEIRJ
amour facile: HALLEYJIAH
a robotic nation: HALLEYJIAH?!?!?!?
amour facile: HALLEHJUIAH
a robotic nation: HAAAAAAAAAAHAHAHA
amour facile: WE HAVE TO OSTTHIS
amour facile: P
a robotic nation: whaaaaaaaatttttttt
amour facile: POST
amour facile: THIS
a robotic nation: HASHAHAH
a robotic nation: IN OUR GODDAMN LIVEJOURNAL
amour facile: GOID
amour facile: HEMROIDS
amour facile: GONADS
a robotic nation: HAHAHAHAHAHAH
amour facile: GONADS ARE A GIRLS BEST FRIEND
amour facile: GONADS MAKE ME WANT TO STICK WITH IT TIL THE END
amour facile: GONADS OH OH OH GONADS
a robotic nation: hahahahahah
amour facile: okay
amour facile: im batter
a robotic nation: did you im brett hahhah
a robotic nation: OH
amour facile: haha no
a robotic nation: NEVERMIND
amour facile: hahahahah
a robotic nation: he asked
a robotic nation: if you were the ohter jessica
a robotic nation: cause your in my info
amour facile: tell him im a wizard
a robotic nation: HAHAHAHAHA
amour facile: named gonad
amour facile: gonadius
a robotic nation: AHAAAAAAAAAAAAAHAHA

loathing @ 2002-09-29T20:51:00

2002-09-30T00:54:21Z

SEPTEMBER mon 30 Pilots vs Aeroplanes, Steve Foxbury,
OCTOBER tue 01 Phat n' Jazzy
wed 02 Hot Water Music
thu 03 Rev. Horton Heat
fri 04 Rev. Horton Heat
sat 05 Rev. Horton Heat
sun 06 Unsung Zeroes
mon 07 The Stereo
tue 08 Tsunami Bomb-cancelled
Phat n' Jazzy
wed 09 Keller Williams
thu 10 Ming + FS
fri 11 Big Sky
sat 12 Axis Magazine Showcase
sun 13 Insufficient Numbers, Dodger and Red Soda
mon 14 Midtown
tue 15 Phat n' Jazzy
wed 16 Generation
thu 17 Some Other Life, Social Burn
fri 18 No Use For A Name
The Ox Project
sat 19 Legendary Pink Dots
sun 20 Shelter
mon 21 Har Mar Superstar + Brandtson
tue 22 Glassjaw
Phat n' Jazzy
wed 23 Guided By Voices-with special guest Superdrag
thu 24 Mest
Late - Kid Koala
fri 25 H.O.B. presents Billy Bragg
Local H
sat 26 The Gloria Record
The Legendary JCs
sun 27 Local Porn Star
mon 28 Eighteen Visions
tue 29 Phat n' Jazzy
wed 30 The Anniversary
thu 31 Heaven and Hell All Hallows Eve Celebration!
NOVEMBER fri 01 One Drop
sat 02 Jim Carroll Spoken Word Performance
sun 03 2002 Orlando Punk & Ska Awards
tue 05 Karate
Wilco At Firestone!
Phat n' Jazzy
thu 07 Melissa Ferrick
fri 08 Les Savy Fav
sat 09 Pedro The Lion
tue 12 Phat n' Jazzy
wed 13 Rainer Maria
thu 14 Jets To Brazil
fri 15 Von Ray
sat 16 Von Ray
sun 17 The Donnas
mon 18 Stavesacre
tue 19 Glenn Tilbrook - From Squeeze
Phat N' Jazzy Pres. Mr Scruff
thu 21 Guttermouth and Nerf Herder
sat 23 Mofro
sun 24 Today Is The Day and Bloodlet , All That Remains...
tue 26 Phat n' Jazzy
sat 30 The Ataris

loathing @ 2002-09-24T16:23:00

2002-09-24T20:25:44Z

fuck you for being inconsiderate.

pucker up for heaven's sake; there's never been so much at stake

2002-09-23T19:38:31Z

tonight i'm hanging out with sarah.
woo!
tomorrow i'm going to the nursing home and to tutor little kids.
wednesday i'm hanging out with danielle & aaron.
aaron has the nicest arms.
they remind me of daniel johns'.

i want to marry them.

loathing @ 2002-09-23T06:54:00

2002-09-23T10:53:44Z

you can be unsure about me all you want
if what you want is for me to go away
just say the word

i know ill be fine in the end
i always am
i have the charm
&you know it
it got to you too.

every me and every you

2002-09-22T14:59:49Z

perfection.

2002-09-22T03:21:53Z

loathing @ 2002-09-21T14:13:00

2002-09-21T18:27:07Z

the show at tippery's was canceled but i still had a very fun night. stephenie picked up danielle, andrew, joey and me and took us to the ghetto. for real. it was so fun. we met some nice boys. i'm definitely ready to hang out with stephenie again really soon. she was teaching me how to not be "so white."
before we left we were watching snatch and every time someone cussed joey would go "PRAISE THE LORD!!"
BAHAHAHA.
i came home early from danielle's because i didn't feel good.
tonight i'm going to avon park to visit jake.
jill and me got in a little fight earlier but i'm not worried about it. i know we'll be fine. i'm just sort of frustrated with her right now.
katy is going to cut my hair for me. maybe before the against me! show. maybe, baby.
next weekend is bright eyes in orlando with noel. i hope everything works out well with that.

aaron t should get online right now.